-= 25.o2.o6 =-

hehe
2 down!
quite a difficult paper
but it's some math that make students think really hard
to see "behind" the question to know the logic
well,
it's over! who cares haha.
now left with java and dcn
get it over quick and there's shopping for me!
weets~
havent been shopping for a long time..
i wanna go town and check out the adidas respect-me collection!
i want to invest in some shiny-font shirts or jackets hee.
must also pack my wardrobe and pass down some clothes that i no longer wear
oh ya
some interesting info to share;

adapted from teens march 2006
--> the lifespan of an eyelash is 150 days
--> you can die from laughing too much, a 50-year old bricklayer from England died laughing
while watching a comedy

and from 24/02/06 Newspaper
--> lie on your left side when you sleep, food will lie in the stomach and move downwards.
when you lie on the right side, the food tends to go upwards due to the opening and
closing of the oesophagus and some other part (which i forgot). post it here to remind
myself too.


-= 26.o2.o6 =-

hmmm,
darling came my house to study
but can say that we were slacking most of the time
around evening, we went for dinner at kfc
a lovely kiss for my banditto =x
yummyy-
dear ate zinger
then we went to buy some fish to breed
bumped into melissa and maurice at the posb atm. lolz.
said our goodbyes,
then went along to the fish shop.
dear chose a bred that belongs to the suckerfish family
and suckerfishs are usually motionless
and he was quite nonchalant after buying that fish and looking at its state
lolz
comparing it to the bred i chose
the black feather fish!
it really looks like a feather! so active too..!
i was so amazed that i chose it immediately.
it swims up most of the time so it really looks like a feather!
oh my precious, mother nature, you are so darn clever..
to disguise it as a feather so as not to be easily noticed as a prey
we bought it all together at $4 plus
and thinking about buying a proper fish tank to breed them and buying another 3 different kinds
hee.
really excited about this..
this shall be our first goal after exams!
dear also want to buy psp
haha, very exp, but since he like it, i shall support his decision.

anyway, up till at night
his father suddenly called to say his grandmother's in a critical condition at the hospital
we were planning to watch The Shutter at the very instance,
but nevermind
i thrust $30 plus into his hands and asked him to take a cab down
didnt go along cuz dear ask me stay at home study
so okie lor..
but after he left i didn't touch much either..
not in the correct mood.. and i've been studying since noon plus a 3 hr break..
tired but not in the correct mood to sleep either..
haiz.
insomnia.

by the way
my classmates were already thinking about next sem's project group
i guess i would be with the guys
since the day i've been shunned off by them indirectly
shrugs-
they probably didnt mean it
but no doubt that i was already hurt.
i find it hard to be in the same group again..
i need members who are competent too..
was already invited to join victor, theodore, dave, glenn.
considering still..
maybe a 70:30 that i will join them.

what else to say over here?
hmm, nothing much still.
ya, i simply love blogging.
i can click on a link and go 2 years ago when i was just 16 years old (i'm nearly 18 now)
and see the events i went through
& laugh through it.

thinking about my life then
secondary school wasn't a breeze for me as hoped
little but painful memories only held in there.
i was seldom reminded that i was happy.
when was the last time i laughed heartily...?

if anyone ask me now when was the last time i felt truly happy
was with my alan lee.
yes, my dearest.
somehow even though i wished i had a female friend like him.
so now he has turned into the other half of me
without him i'll probably die
he's the bestest friend and love i have had in my entire life.

got some things in mind nowadays
hmmm

friends

i see friends in groups
laughing and chattering happily away
teasing and gossiping
and i look at myself
and wonder if i'm living the same lifestyle i should be
but thinking of it
could i even be living this kind of lifestyle with my class girls
the probability is 80:20
i shan't go into details
it's just that difficult

throughout my life
friends come and go
people who claimed to be best friends of mine before
disappeared into thin air
or maybe the problem lies with me
was i not a good friend before?

or maybe i couldnt find a good friend
usually i would treat a person well if she treats me well too

or maybe because i have a partner?
maybe somehow it does affect a little
but it's that little feeling of him understanding about my everything
that most of the time
i just wanna be with him
in fact, he's the other half of me

Work

i'm working on weekends during march for that brands' roadshow
got dear along too
i dont know about yp..
another communication breakdown i suppose

Renu Multi-purpose contact lense solution

this solution
STOP USING
for the moment
more than 36 out of 39 use this solution and got an infection
i just bought two huge bottles of this solution and 2 days later
it is reported to be dangerous to use
so,
ya.
stop using.

i'm having math exam today
wish me good luck.
once over, 2 down, 2 more to go.
all the best folks..

bad start for an exam day
forgot my doggie purse

yays, finished asp..
maybe i can't hit my target this time
hopefully.. hopefully..
di's song.. 'there can be a miracle.. when you believe'
lol
mama says "i love you"
moral boost
hehe

should i rest today or should i just get on with math
hmmmmm
very fatigued.. very..

-= 21.o2.06 =-

Hmmm, stayed at dear's house overnight
seemed to be going over everyday lolz.
study ma, what else.. exams' just tomorrow
holidays around the corner hehe
working on every weekend in March for that Brands' roadshow
everyday $50means an easy $400 in that month
weeeeeee!(plus my starhub roadshows =x)
pulled dear in too heecan work together! yays~
i'm fatigued.
wondering what makes me so worn out these few days
no amount of sleep is enough for me
pimples are bursting out suddenly like mad
stress?
perhaps.. this semester's modules are totally like trash
almost all the teachers are equal to useless
shucks.
you gave us so many tips and study guidelines but we dont even have any idea what you are teaching
the only thing we understand, surprisingly is java
cause we've got a fab tutor
last semester was good, i pull it through with pretty capable grades
but i doubt i can pull it through this sem3 words;
all seem bad.

pondering over our next sem's project already
i mean, the groupings.
there's a new couple in our class
meaning that 2 will be stuck togetherno doubt
they're stuck together like glue everyday
so, ya, no comments.
di mentioned it will be around the same.
i dunno..beats me, but if it means staying in the same original group as now
i will immediately announce the death of me
mr yong mentioned before,
our class is evenly distributed with potential pupils
such that our project groups always have at least one potential pupil
i love being a leader
no doubtcan scold people
just kidding..i mean, it's great to know that people are heeding your advices,
and you are actually on your way to achieving the best for this group together
hmmmm.
typing all these made me tired too
gonna study ASP.NET again
bored-

-= 18.o2.06 =-

went yuki yaki for dinner to celebrate dear's daddy birthday
hmmm, had some disappointed thoughts..
and got to know them a little bit more outside..
but nevermind..
cause all went well in the end.

suddenly thought of a 18-year old resolution
which is to sign up an additional cable-tv for my daddy to watch soccer
cause he always complained of stress and being bored
so as long as there is soccer to watch,
he will feel less bothered.
but there is one thing,
from my knowledge of working at starhub
he would definitely know of this surprise as my current maxonline is under his name
so in any case of transferring ownership account,
he will need to be present and one household can only have one account.
so, i'll just bring him along to sign up under his name lor
hehe. now for the calculation part
he will only want soccer and some movies
so the basic 3 groups will be education, entertainment and chinese infotainment (for mum)
he likes discovery channels too..hmmm,
tmr i go take a brochure on this stuffs..
havent been working for quite some time so a little rusty lol
and so.. hey! if it doesnt have to be my name
i dont need to be 18 years old to give him this surprise!yays! ^^v
already started saving..so once exams are finished and when i'm working again
this will be my first resolution.
a digital box will cost an additional $12.60 every month..
so why not i just choose family package..yea, need that brochure again..
one year to two year contract i should think..no need to pay installation fee cause we hubber hehe save $31.50
yup.that'll do.

-= 19.o2.o6 =-

sighs.
dear felt unwell again..
always at my house when this happens, homesick i guess. lol.
was at my house yesterday to accompany my lonliness at home
but he fell asleep in less than an hour at my house.
so, lol. i'm the one accompanying him.
woke up and ate lunch, and off he go..sad again..
lonely..then my daddy come spoil my mood again about that piece of junk (my adaptor)
cannot work means cannot work, i will pay for it,
but i need to study now, so pls pls, dont disturb me about those junkies.
i'm even blogging on a notepad and transferring them to blogger at school.
i havent even complain despite having important notes in the sch's internet
-irritated-
you should have bought another one for joreen so that she wont plug in and out causing it to spoil
then you got fed up saying we keep spoiling things
causing you to waste moneyyyyyyyy
and i PAID for that damn piece of junk
oh wells, forget it.
and my stupid rival
NYT

Declare NYT As String
If bitch
Slap-
Else
Also Slap-

keep contacting my bf
yes, he's my bf
so pls STOP all those bullshit
wanna act sister to him so that you can contact him more huh
fat HOPE
STAY away from him.
biatch. 6 months of warning.
i had enough.
what pride of me, this girlfriend of his, do you leave?
you know, YOU KNOW, he has a girlfriend,
so it's never possible for you to have a chance
so BUZZ off.
he's mine. pig.
fullstop.

yesss. i'm angry.
you have thoughts of replyin back somemore
replying back means giving her encouragement to contact you more often
why can't you think this way when you know SHE LIKES YOU
argggghhh.
i dont know what to say
i only know i'm damn angry.
blame it on my stress or whatever.
i'm ridiculous.
so be it.
i'm selfish.
my tolerance level also has a limit.
NYT - dont push it.
before i contact you directly to fuck off.

back again to post
at dear house
cause he's unwell
must take good care of him though i'm feeling rather useless
pretty angry with myself
teared a bit last night looking at him battling with his stomach and intestines
seeing him 'chat' with the toilet bowls and 'painting' the porcelain with different colours each time
see him vomit for the umpteenth time yet i cant do anythin
i even forgot to bring him plastic bags during transportation
blardy stupid of me
ya, diagnosed with stomach flu
as i guessed so
severe vommiting, dizzy spells...

i researched the following, post it up to remind him if i'm not by his side..

dear, read this!

How is it treated?

The most important thing to do is to rest the stomach and intestines. You can do this by first eating nothing and drinking only clear liquids. A little later you can eat soft bland foods that are easy to digest.

During the vomiting phase of the illness it is best to have only small, frequent sips of liquids. Drinking too much at once, even an ounce or two, may cause more vomiting.

Your choice of liquids is important. If water is the only liquid you can drink without vomiting, that is okay. However, if you have been vomiting frequently for a long time, you must replace the minerals, sodium and potassium, that are lost when you vomit.

Ask your health care provider what sport drinks or medical products could help you replace these minerals.

Other clear liquids you can drink are weak tea and apple juice. You may also drink soft drinks without caffeine (such as 7 UP) after letting them lose some of their carbonation (go flat). Chilling the liquids may help you keep them down. Avoid liquids that are acidic (such as orange juice) or caffeinated (such as coffee) or have a lot of carbonation. Do not drink milk until you no longer have diarrhea.

You may start eating soft bland foods when you have not vomited for several hours and are able to drink clear liquids without further upset. Soda crackers, toast, noodles, applesauce, and bananas are good first choices. Avoid foods that are acidic, spicy, fatty, or fibrous (meats, coarse grains, vegetables) and dairy products. You may start eating these foods again in 3 days or so, when all signs of illness have passed.

Sometimes treatment includes prescription medicine to prevent nausea and vomiting or diarrhea. Nonprescription medicine is available for the treatment of diarrhea and is very effective. If you use it, make sure you use the dose recommended on the package. Before you use any medicine
for diarrhea, always check with your health care provider first.

If you have been vomiting for more than a day or have had diarrhea for over 3 days, call your health care provider. You may need to have a physical exam to rule out more serious problems and to check for dehydration. You may also need to have lab tests to determine whether bacteria or protozoa are causing your illness.

Dehydration is a potentially serious complication of stomach flu. It can occur if your body loses too much fluid because you keep vomiting or having diarrhea. If you are severely dehydrated, you may need to be given fluids intravenously (IV). In children and the elderly, dehydration can quickly become life threatening.




3 papers down, 4 more to go

1) French
2) Project 1290
3) Communication skills
4) asp.net
5) computing maths 2
6) java
7) dcn

get it over quick and soon it'll be paradise once more

didn't manage to celebrate our belated valentines' and sixth monthsary today
but it doesn't matter
as long as each day i'm with you, it's worth a celebration
as long as you get well, it's worth a celebration
get well soon okie?
i'll always be here for you if you need me in service or just me
repay me with double tax when you get well yea?
i love you sweetie
hope to see you in that gay pose again
cause you dont even have the few bits of energy to smile

once again, happy half-year-sary =]
smuacks.

yes!
finally no more projects!
had our presentation today and went through it quite smoothly
finally!
what a huge relief..
yays.
then we had communication skills exam
then i've got another presentation
waste of time
it's not ever possible to get a dist with all those rotten-brains
so i anyhow present then left with alan
last semester got B for comm skills and java
wanna bring it to an A this sem
but scared my dcn, maths and asp would drop lol
hopefully the tips they give are reliable
oh ya
by the way
my adaptor just went nuts
so i wont be blogging often till i get a new one
anyway it's exams now so it's better to focus..
then can finally relax!
weeets~

didn't celebrate valentines'
cause busy with projects
but doesnt matter cause we're so sweet
everyday seems to be valentines'
haha.
but we agreed to celebrate both our 6th monthsary and valentines' on fri!
with pizza hut in town!
hoorayy! -grins-
hope to take neo prints hee.
cause long time no take le
happy valentines' wor honey

resting for the rest of the days this week den start studyin again next week
must jia you!
hee.

till we meet again blogger..
hee.

yoohoo
did our french role play le
haha
funny though cuz i actually hid the script behind the map (i'm a tourist)
then the teacher saw it
haha, tested us again whether we memorised the lines
i passed it ^^v
dearie coming my house today overnight
for 3 days
hee.
gonna enjoy being with him
tmr coming back to school for project again
glenn lor
so lazy do things
alamaks

oh yea
o levels results are out
esther's results not bad neh!
congrats dudey!
=)
all the best in ur tertiary life yea?
muz choose ur favourable course!
muarkks!
completing our project soon.. i'm excited!
really hope everythin works well..
=]

quite a brief post today
and btw my usb wireless adapter's injured
means i cant use my net at the moment anymore!
haix.
gettin my contact lenses today too
weee~
got to go
good luck for my french exam on monday =/

yesterday had a cold war with dear
didn't talk to him for the whole journey from amk to his house
yea, we walked
and i only told him 1 sentence even though he asked me plenty of questions
which was "you dont need to do anythin"
anyway it's my character
not his fault
but made me very insecure after that time he lied.
and i remembered a promise
anyway i knew he will be doing that when he uses his mum's phone to sms
but i told myself
not to think too much
but today
i saw that reply
and my mind was filled with thoughts throughout that whole night after that msg
it's not his fault.
the problem lies with me.
just can't help it.
i've told the whole world.
i'm selfish.

i saw a frail cat along the way
and i felt like telling him
'once a kitten is hurt by people
by that time she starts growing into a cat,
she will always be afraid of being hurt again'

he apologised.
for making me lose trust again
my heart sank
even though he told me countless times if i'm unhappy with anythin
"yi ding yao jiang"
but i already told him long ago
he complied.
but it doesnt work
so i dont tell him anymore
it's useless
but i still told him in the end =/

this morning
he said
let's not have cold war anymore okie?
why?
because i dont wanna lose you.

awww.
whatever happened to us yesterday?
lol.
forgot.

haixz
today going to alanlee's house
cuz tmr 8 am start school marx
hmmmm.
he told me something today
"wo zhen de hen dui bu qi ni
mei ci rang ni shang xin"
made my heart melt..
chou dear..
just wanna tell you,
you mean the most to me
that's why i experienced some feelings that i would never feel with other people
it's because you have a place in my heart..
hope u wont leave me because of this okie?
all this all part and parcel of a relationship yeas?
love u darl
hee x)

had quite a tired day today
had french quiz in the afternoon and omg
i got only a just pass grade
-.-
well, she didnt teach that few parts until after the lesson
which was, yea, wtf
dear was pissed by this.
i dont think he want to take up life sci if he din manage to get this over with
tomorrow's joanne's birthday!
and gy bought her a $139 baby pink adidas jacket!
o.O (eyes popped out)--> woahhhh.
speechless yes.
i only bought her a simple earring cause i'm not as outrageously rich as her gy lol
but sometimes i do dream about being rich
i can spend whatever amount of money i can
revamp my room
change my wardrobe
buy a huge tank for my tortoise
treat my friends to goodies everytime
buy lovely treats for darling
basically.. good enough
but, haha.
i'm still down here in a dull pink room with a foldable bed and half a wardrobe
goodyness.
well well,
our project presentation is on the same day as our comm skills exam!
how unlucky can we get?
double the stress.
and i simply hate having two exams on the same day
i hope the independent marker wont give us stress.
anyway, 1 more hr to monkey's birthday!
wish her a very happy 19th birthday first (:
may all ur wishes come true..
hahas, ur teenage years are gonna be OVER =P

i got to learn not to eat vinegar too much.

POST CNY post
lolxz.
worked yesterday at cineleisure
so many people
cuz there was this chingay parade
their tees are so nicee!
anyway, i was at the pushcart near world of sports
selling those explicit tees like "f**k u" all that
60% of the people were amazed and 40% were overwhelmed by it and bought it immediately
anyway, i produced v.good sales of near $400
geez.
from juz 5 to 11 ^^v
saw laytin and liangyu though lolx.
then dearie came to fetch me
hehe
back to his hse and slp
but i couldnt sleep,
the radio was distracting
and when i finally did
he smacked his hand on my face -.-
then i woke up again lol

yesterday i dreamt about a very sad thing..
i dreamt that he left me
i was so sad and lost
people jeered at me for thinking about him all the time when i squatted at a void deck crying
so so upset.
when we woke up i quickly hug dearie
and i asked him not to leave me
it was horrible
this was the second time i dreamt he left me
once was when he was involved in an accident and left the world
and now, leaving me.
AWWW.
why am i always having weird dreams?
sigh.

well, valentines' day coming...
i made a key chain, wallet, phone holder all combined in one for him
four hours of hard work.
using ice-cream sticks.
hee.
and additional 2 shirts for him.
he bought me jeans from giordano, a hefty $50 bucks.
same as my presents for him
lol.
actually we cant celebrate valentines'
cuz the next day is comm skills exam!
sigh.
nevermindd.
we'll have the celebrations on our 6th monthsary!
yipppeee!

dear..
i cant express how much i love you
every single memory we hold
i hold it in my heart closely and dearly
remember what you said to me before?
"if time were by my side
i make sure i be right by your side 24/7"
that really made me very touched wor
remember how we used to attack each other with burps, tickles and farts?
lolx.
seemingly unhygienic but we love it
how i run the moment i sniffed somethin ridiculously WRONG
and how i lovee to sniff HIS body de wei dao
(and he claims i look like a dog)
especially early in the morning and late at night
i miss the wei dao every night if i'm alone
and innocently wishin how blissful it could be if he were to be my side every night
and how i would snuggle to his chest and he would roll himself up cuz he's sensitive to tickles at that area
and how we would follow kakashi's "one thousand years of pain" up the butt
and how we would finally hug each other tightly every morning we wake up and before we sleep.
and how i love to hear the 3 golden words whenever he wants me to stay overnight at his house
i dont ever want all these to end
i hope these go on forever
i love you to the MAX
and my MAX is infinity..
really love you, dear.
happy early valentines' honeyy (:
with lotsa hugs and muacks,
maureen.