went to ihub for starhub work today
worked non-stop.
reached there quite early so went shopping
bought many many things!
my pay just came out today for the first time during my holidays
so don't blame me
here goes:
my teen-ink small bag @ $15.90
mango shoulder-less 3/4 tee @ $25.00
flesh imp red tanktop @ $8.70 (70% discount! hoho!)
green beaded necklace @ $3.90 from yupei's shop
hahaz.
spent alot..
but i'm satisfied!
yupei bought the green tank top hahas.
went home with her today
chatted alot too.. hahas. how i miss her (:
thinking of what should i wear for tmr's date
my precious tube or my red tank or my mango shoulder-less tee..
hmmmm.
bottom will be jeans.
i don't wear skirts.
tmr's 'Ice Age 2' day!
finally a movie with dear!
hees.
then we'll be chionging the arcade with 20 bucks.
enough?
hahas. heck. not enough then top up lors =x
i'm so anticipating tmr.
woots.

i'm back
after staying over at dear's house for a couple of days
cause my workplace for these few days is at ST Electronics
pretty near amk.
played basketball for 2 days too
hee.
haven been eating much though
sometimes i see dear also don't have money to eat enough
i feel so bad
still got to let him give me $2.50 everyday to eat a little
without these money i would have fainted of hunger.
thanks a million dear.
somehow my mood these few days still have not recovered
little things he did would make my angry
for instance, he being late yesterday cause he chatted with a female colleague
then bathe late, got out late.
which was contradicting in the morning where he makes sure he's punctual meeting his own friends but never make sure he's punctual in meeting me
i have never seen him so enthusiastic waking up so early in the morning
unlike meeting me.
at times i dont mind but i didn't have a good day
i got harrassed by people who claims to do a donation for children who were obviously a fake
and one whole swarm of army guys smoking around me
argghh. i've got a sensitive nose!
got really angry.
felt so emotional.
sort of scolded him for always making me wait but never let his friends wait.
cried on the mrt in his arms.
everytime i raised my voice at him i would be heartbroken
i really didn't mean it
but i didn't feel that i was important.
everytime we try to go on a proper date but it never seem to work
but he loves me..
i know he does.
he promises to be punctual in future.
hope our date on saturday will go on smoothly, as planned.
i, just need more attention these days.
but sometimes i wish i can shut myself out of the world.
i want to wallow in self-pity.

i actually wrote a very long post.
but decided not to publish it.
too personal.
and i'm lazy to type anything else.

today went work again
at brands'
last day lers, very enthusiastic hee
but in the morning had a fight with dear
sorry, didn't mean to flar up..
forgot about your family condition.
then whole day sian sian
then think a lot
never slp in the mrt as i usually do
think and think..
then sitting down there they all chatting among themselves
and realised how lonely i was
everywhere.
then scrolled through my phonebook for someone to sms
but, like my msn contacts
most of them are redundant.
then finally a few hrs later
i decided on theodore
i sent, then stopped.
felt better, cause treating his number as a blog
but as expected he called
i rejected.
dont feel like answering, cuz very teary le..
then..
dear sms me during lunch lo..
then chat abit jiu stop..
then i sian sian sit back there again..
think again.. fighting back my tears every minute
tried to stop thinking by writing those flyers with "last day"
helped abit..
the lonely feeling
few people will understand.
next time elaborate again
he's somewhere near me now.
haix

i'm in a monthly moody mood
girls' stuffs
my mum's actions disappoint me
nahs
dont wish to bring it up

i feel so restless
my life
is either schooling or working
when can i have a better life?
is it because im poor that i've got to work for my entire teenage life?
to save some money for myself?
shopping is my only pleasure
to get my mind away from my hectic life
colleagues asked me why i keep avoiding working
i dont know
i just really want to enjoy life
how i admire those kids who get a blue piece of money every day
they can buy a new phone every week with that money!
me?
years.
it's gonna take me years.
i see friends taking beautiful classic phones
i wish i had them too.
i even got to give up my bed for my sister
can i have a proper bed?
i go kopitiams
not posh restaurants
i can hardly afford steamboats
but i scrimp and scrimp just to gather to go out with friends
my boy and i survive on coins we saved during the time we had money
now how much can it be?
i owe him 10 bucks.
i left $30 next week.
7 days.
i really dont want to work.
i'm tired.
but i'm broke.
with that single-digit amount i have in my bank.
how can i survive..
i'm in dire straits.
sigh

dear, must eat okie..
dont keep playing games and forgetting to eat..
love ya..

out of the so many 100 contacts in my msn
i actually only need about 30
the rest are just for show, isn't it

dunno why i'm getting so depressed suddenly
maybe it got to do with the hormones secreting out of me during my montly moody mood
what choice do i have
i lack company
but i'm anti-social.
i don't click well with people i just know
i don't like to act so close with people whom i only know for a few days
i hate those perverts on mrt trains
dont think you have skimpy eyes means i cannot see you
are reflections fake?
without dear around, i don't feel secure.
at all.

i'm complaining.
i'm whining.
why's life have always been such a bore for me
dear don't misunderstand wor
life's never have been happier since you stepped into my life
i mean when i'm alone
so many things can come to mind.

back to blogging again
weeee~
work and work all these few days
and my red auntie is here to visit me again
during one of my roadshows.
hmmmm, not quite fun.

and oh haha, i ate so many things today
like a pig
having been feasting for so long
i haven even spent a single cent dear spare me today
i'm totally broke
they buy and share and share
and i steal a bit here and there
drank 1.5 litres of h2o and ta-da,
i'm 0.5 kg heavier.
yay man.
sigh-

i miss my hubby.
i wonder how he is now..
playing games as usual i suppose
that fat slob.
nevermind, i love him.
hehe.
money money moneyy.. please come faster..
we need it..
we're so surviving on coins
lolz.

yeaps
our results are out
quite pleased with it..
way out of my expectations.
but nevermind,
better than nothing.
good news is.. everyone passed!
congratulations to year 2oo5 DIT0512 class for surviving year 1!

i'm a bit sian.
haiz.
go count my pay liao
x)

results are out tmr at 6 am.
just a few more hours.
click here to find out more.

did starhub roadshow today at imm
stand the whole day
but time passes really fast
unlike brands'
arghh.

dearie sent me an email saying he miss me wahahaha
so sweet of him
thanks darling
i love you.

thur's outing with esther's cancelled
but nevermind
there's always a next time (:

well,
xin ping jing he
-prays-
5 more hrs to results outcome.

work at brands' today at clementi
super boring
i need lots of entertainment
will some people be kind and visit me..
lol
it's totally rotting!
then chatted up with chengwei gor
he was actually doing homework
haha. so unbelievable.
hee.
we're meeting up on good friday together with ming yang and rer
cool right?
steamboat! heh.
can't wait for that day
btw did i mention i saw xiao hei today?
haha, he was shopping for chicken essence for his friend's family
but i'm still rotting
so boring. it's the same thing tmr.

results are releasing in 3 days time..
i'm so anxious.
will i score well?
my expectations of my results have always been high
well, i hope so.

thought of doing some DIY business too
maybe i can make accessories, tee-shirts, and plenty more
but i would need a lot of commitment
i wanted to do business so much.
anybody interested in getting a business partner?

ya, i swopped the spoilt adaptor for a new one
but the monitor says "cannot associate with access point"
does anyone knows how to allow the adaptor to communicate with the router?
please help me by replying on the tagboard.
i've already installed the cd, and restart the comp.
i even tried using another adaptor, which is successful.
maybe it doesnt recognize my new adaptor id yet
but how do i make my router recognize?

i'm going broke!
omg.
i'm scrimping whenever i can.
awww.
i still owe darling $14.
must pay back.
i want to go shopping so badly.
TRULY MADLY DEEPLY...
can someone spare me some cash for shopping..

btw dear,
happy belated 7th monthsary
really treasure you wor
today i saw your NSSL shirt
and i miss you wearing it
today i hear your ringtones
and thought you were by my side
today i see tortoises car
and i miss smacking your head
today we're so far apart
and i really miss you a lot
we've reached our 7th month
and we'll keep it going
to the 70th, 700th, 7000th
just as long as i'm with you.
love you, precious.

nah. thats all.
hee.

sighs.
now then i know
all those "dowans"
meant something.
sighs.
i'm so useless.
what have i done...?
sigh.
depressed-

ya, i'm not finished.
what's the definition behind "customers are always right"?

we're are friendly, we don't get compliments
we're just stressed out a little, and we're considered rude
people certainly do make use of this sentence to get as much advantages as possible
they are welcomed to give as much feedback as possible to us
yet we aren't welcomed to give them back ours
we got to endure their crude remarks
a little JOKE = complain
cause we're NOT serious
with these kind of attitude customers are giving to staff
how do u expect out staff to be 100% pleasing to you?
this is so stupid and retarded,
it's a give and take issue
right, there are some areas for us to improve on
we will adhere to it and make appropriate discipline

what's this world coming to?
it's such a disappointment.
with those campaigns about praising and encouraging the working society
i believe 60% of the people have too much pride to say that.
anyway
we're supposed to endure.
too many rules to follow.
but i still believe in respect for both parties in the staffs and customers.

to those who are not out into the working industry
i'm not fully into it yet
but i believe it's enough to give you this advice
be careful, you won't know who you're talking to.

why so many unhappy things are happening to me nowadays
and they're bothering me to the maximum
why
there's no harm for me trying to look a little different during chinese new year
why give me critiscms and ask me try not to put on too much make-up
and say i look like ru hua?
i'm not saying ru hua's ugly
she never wanted to be born like that
but it's cny!
it's hurting.
sure, i can ignore about what he says and be confident
but i've been not confident all along
all of my friends know that well.
i always get critiscms no matter how hard i try
and whenever someone tries to put in a good word
i will tell myself IT'S NEVER TRUE
those comments were NEVER TRUE!
yes
i'm frightfully sensitive about my image issue
pple may think it's stupid
but i am.
i dont care if it's a joke.
but i'm telling you
i WILL be angry.

rer!
me went to read back some archives too
haha.
really miss you and er ge!
muz meet up someday okie? hehe.
hugs*
gor arh! if you got visit my blog de tag a bit lar okie?
hehe.
dont lazy lolz.
HUGGS*

dear crazy liao. win playstation so happy -.-"

hooorayyy!
no more paper ler!
hee.
oh ya, a few updates about work
i'm working alone.. they suddenly called and said dear's not in
arghh.
it would be lovely to work with him
time would pass faster
and we both will get $400
but.. haix.
the agency really disappoint me with their arrangements
wont name it lest there's something offical to complain about
change the briefing for another day
can't let me rest really well for my last exam day
talk to me also wanna hang up the phone fast
so darn rude
then never let dear in when it's already decided by my in-charge
then the pay is always delayed.
sianz. this's the last time i'm working for them.
give face for ,my in-charge

the rest are going out tmr
but me and dear are going out..
we long time really never go out le
sorry wor di!
next time okie?
promise (=
today can't go out too..
cuz i was so fatigued.
sorry joanne..
haax.
but you must enjoy yourself too okie?
life's short lol
maybe if you all going town i can see you all tmr
but if meet you all one day liao can dont keep talking about games mar?
=/

dear chionging playstation with his bro
i sleeping beside him then he keep screaming peter crouch!
make my dream also see them play playstation
lolz.
nah.. exams over le.. must enjoy..
i got a feeling the holidays gonna be bored
for the first week i'll be resting
from next week onwards is work.
but i'm starting work this weekend at clementi
for every weekend this march
arghh. sian, cannot go grandma's house again
will miss the i-mode gathering on sat too..
hai.

life's short..
must enjoy.. lolz.
i will think of some other ways..

yays.
last paper to go!
weets~ hehe
dcn's the last war we're going to fight
but there isnt much things to study for 1 whole day either
hmmmm.
talking bout di's blog
about best friends haha.
i'm sure someone will fit in to be your best friend
must wait for him to naturally come along de okie?
hee.
i'm sure best friends bu shi ni yao you jiu you de
understand ma?
=)