haha
my favourite cartoons is still tom and jerry
since young,
that dumb cat never get to catch the clever mouse
haha
enjoy this 7-min show!

i see some childish pple tagging.
lolx.
i dont care
cause the past is past (:

could not sleep yesterday
that stupid tortoise keep making so much noise
i had to only sleep at 4 plus.
and today school start's at 8.
awww.
damn tired.
nothing much today (:

done.
everythin's fine (:

it's just a little too much.
i hate accusations.
it's okay,
my conscience is clear.
not to worry.

joanne,
i appreciate the fact that you want to make business a cooperative affair
and you all are only doing it for FUN!
but i am doing it for real.
let the url i gave you be evidence that i intend to start it way long ago
and pls just take note of the date.
which prints MARCH 19.
just that that time there wasn't any holidays right?
cant i use the holidays to start my business?
you HAD the same holidays as mine right?
i'm not even starting, YET.
of course i know you will say i copy you.
i dont wan to bring up misunderstandings.
but i guess i still.
i never say i was afraid.
and at least, i treat you as a friend,
and i did not make silly accusations, like you did.
which hurt me.
anyone could tell i'm still in the process in designing.
i din even include prices!
come on, my planning started in MARCH.

i'm forgetting about all these stuffs.
if it was any other person i din know bringing up this issue
i wont give a heck bout him/her.
but this person bringing it up is joanne.
someone whom i've regarded as a good friend before.
since she doesn't care the amt of hurt she's gonna create.
i shan't either.
you had it coming.
true friends will talk it out.
i would love to.
BUT YOU GAVE THE SIGNAL NO.
so i guess this is what comes to our friendship.
the end.

but i dont care, i'm still more interested in designing pretty accessories.
pretty dainty ones.

HOHO.
still din manage to get some pple to understand that i'm NOT copying them
is any of my designs the same or even, similar?
come on, go hop around yahoo, just type in the word beads
you'll see thousands of blogs doin these things.
and, i din even sell them?
did you see abit of price in those designs?
i'm just gently reminding (:
i'm courteous enough, wan scold me just tag it here.
no need "ask ur friend not be a COPYCAT"
okkie?
gonna ask yongwei how she made her beads so beautiful.
haha, make her my teacher =x
visit her at http://amberjewels.blogspot.com
i find my designs inferior to hers. lolx.

back to school.
lolx.
a nostalgic feeling.
haha. bored. got to go back to all the stress and face them all over again.
studying in singapore ain't simple.
you have high expectations from others.
and it isn't simple to fulfil them.
well, nobody say it's easy anyway.

yesterday went dear's house overnight
had a great time
we do our homework together.
hahax, teased him about his mouth posture while he plays his game
lolx. basketball also will have this stunt de.
dunno why, so cute. hehe.
loves him (:

well, successfully cooked the nasi lemak!
daddy helped me with the cooking of rice and the deep-fried chicken wings
hahax. not bad lars. first time cook nasi lemak lehs =x

Yupei!
Happy 18th birthday!
was sorry to hear that your bbq was cancelled.
dont worry okkies?
you still have our full blessings!
i prepared my present for you! haha, will ask mouse to pass it to ya
din sms u cuz i left my phone at alan's house ):
sorry!
once again, i hope that u will have a great time!
i'm sure mouse will help make up for it (:
hehe, may you and mouse stay happy always!

think that's all ba,
wont be online tonight i guess
cuz need to study for tmr's ooad test
arghhh, see the amount of stress singaporean students have?
back to school and there's so many endless things to do.

hehe,
i'm cooking for dear tmr!
he's coming over. weets
actually today was quite upset, cried and went crazy for a few hours
but nah, shan't mentio anymore,
it's over anyway. gee

i'm cooking nasi lemak.
tmr i gonna wake up at 8 plus 9 to cook the rice
then rush out go buy the chicken wings and thigh for the soup and nasi lemak
since dear hate vegetables, i will make soup with chicken and veggie
(he loves chicken)
hehe, so that he'll still get the necessary nutrients!
then i will buy apples too. hehe.
serve as an after-meal.
i ask him to arrive ard 1230
hope i'll be ready by then.
i'm so excited! i love cooking!

i made my first accessories!
i'm so darn happy cause the third one looks great.
hehe.
this is my logo =x
wait till im confident enough to put up these accessories on another URL
hees. i'm excited



isn't it cute.
showed theodore before, esther also.
way long ago, before i sit down and chain those miracle things together.

here goes!
my first creation.
i have limited crystals,
so all of these are relatively simple
but i took great pains!
cause every chain and link contains my blessings!
to be given as a birthday present to yupei
so i called the necklace creation - yupei



and the earrings creation - yupeis
i know this's name lousy but lolx.
i cant think of another.



then here comes my third and so far most lovely design
i love how the crystals colours match with each other!
i call this the Charm Butterfly



the green crystal's in the shape of a heart
sorry my photos suck. haha.

and the last,
a very simple one, but the picture isnt clear here
wait till i change my phone
lolx.
this's called Standalone
you can guess from its name.



but i love how the purple swavroski crystal shines and standout so well on a plain shirt or sphagetti

hehe.
a good start, i should say.

went kbox with dear today!
decided to go amk's outlet
so din ask xuanbin coz he wont travel all the way there!
he lives at boon lay, know =x
sang plenty of songs!
hahax, ate k lunch, i chose laksa, dear chose chicken rice
okkie lars the food, but only a few strands of noodles =(
still hungry so after that went pastamania!
yummies.
ate my fav chocolate mousse.
it's so soft, and yummies, i love it.

best of all, i still enjoy spending time with darling.

although i dread him going with a grp of friends which consists of my rival.
her name is gigi koh. her chinese name, i forget,
let's just call him bei ke.
which is tomorrow.
eeee, hate that sucker.
arghhs. why is my alan so attractive?
pls, even if you like him, on account that he has got a gf, let him off?
dun take advantage of his kindess towards his friends to meet him okkiee?
and excuses of gatherings just to see him.
and, why should i allow a girl who likes my bf to see him now and then?
NO WAY.
and dunno why the stupid alan still agrees to meet up.
arghhh.
he still haven tell me why.
i wanna know why.
but he doesn't want or prolli doesn't know how to.
he's too kind.

but, my darling loves me.
he told me seriously today that i'm his only love.
make me smile like kuku =x
too bad GG. your name spells out this.
good game.
but GAME'S OVER.
you shan't be seeing him anymore =)

started making jewellery!
very simple ones.
only made a necklace and a pair of matching earrings.
shall give it to yupei as a complimentary gift from ma0-designs
and an 18th birthday present! hehe.
hope she doesn't read this before the bbq.
will post the pictures up once she receives the present!

jewellery is so difficult to make actually.
i took so many hours to make the necklace.
it's very simple! but too bad lars, i noobie.
lolx.
a good start! and i believe there'll be more coming.
wait for my announcements =x

went esther's house!
got back my crumpler's bag
lolx.
bought a skirt at ice lemon tee!
skirt okie. not short lars.
alan will kill me.
then esther painted my nails!
french manicure! she did till so yong xin!
lolx, yet i have to go to the toilet just minutes after the end and spoil one of them!
sadded.
she bought me a wallet! thanks esthie, love it <3
(:

hai.
it makes me sick
to think of it.
sigh once more.

i go eat another icecream.

woots
im so tired.
im eating cookies and cream icecream now
yummies-

haix.
my dad's still unable to get back to work
and he's getter skinnier and skinnier
poor him.
sighs. he should just quit that job and be a taxi driver.

i'm so sian.
dont feel like doin work or anything.
too bored. looks like ooad isnt out yet.
went to buy this morning but it wasn't available.

i'm very bored.

i'm sad again.
how should i be feeling?
or rather, let's ask all the girls?
if your bf should have another gal's gift hanging on his hp
with the gal confessing that she likes him?
this gal is the gal who took his contact num last sat
it's childish to like someone whom u hardly know for a few days.
she's becoming another sylvia.
what should i do?
how should i be feeling?
this is not about trust isn't it?
the trust part is whether he will leave me for her
which he promises a no-no.

i dunno.
i'm very confused.
i also dont want him to stop telling me things
couples are not suppose to hide anything from each other.
should i just let it pass?
he cant do anything to stop the gal from liking him also.
what should i do?

hehe
just finish working at cine
sales quite bad lar.
today's a weekend somemore.
lol.
terence gor came down to find me twice.
theodore also came.
then saw sabrina and yanting again.
they machiam everyday come cine lolx.
saw them on tuesday liaox!
saw cfc also, with his friend.
saw siew meng, lolx.
she wear the dress so pretty haha.
then she say she feel uncomfortable in it -.-
lolz.
felt feverish later on in the day
then terence came down
confirmed i had fever and take my pulse lol.
imitate my changjin.

today is me and dear's 10th monthsary!
actually me and his character's opposite
he's always cheerful,
and doesn't take things to heart
i must follow his example.
that way i will make both of us happier.
heex.
love him so much.

nothin much to blog today
just know i have a new shopping list.
by observing girls at cine today
HEHE.

finally someone agreed to do a small business with me
lolx.
but it's just a trying out first
cuz might not work and might cost us a huge price
at first asked ruping but she wasnt keen
then asked esther but she's also not keen
then i thought, why not get a guy?
a guy sometimes have weird ideas. lolx.
and that precious guy is my baby.
hehe. not that im tryin to pose yongwei or joanne.
but yongwei tried it out and turns out to be quite successful
admire her though, she made really fanciful items
visit her at amberjewels
she's also holding a stall at the lime flea market
so you can check it out there too (:
i already have this idea long long long ago.
just that i didn't have someone to share this passion with
so many people are doing home-made earrings and jewellery.
but i'm serious in this.
and i will do it.
i have to be determined to have it fulfilled.
gees.
once i get my next pay, it shall go to these materials.
and i can contact my pushcart manager to sell my items too.
and of course, these items must make their mark.
i'm tired of searching for earrings and necklaces that i like.
so i gonna make them myself.
this shall be the orientation.
and shall begin next monday, cuz it's my payday.
and it shall mark a new beginning for me.
at least this will keep me busy instead of thinking about useless stuff
and annoying people.
i've long ago set up a blog to put my earrings.
and even have a yahoo email to get people to contact me.
lolx. long ago okie.
so dont say i'm posing.
my friends can be my witnesses.
let all these be a fair competition.

how come happy days dont last?

today went bishan's J8 with dear
he treated me to swensens.
wanna say thanks, it was quite happy throughout
except that damn waiter which drop fries on my leg

then my mood starts to dampen when we reach marina square
all those riches that i couldn't afford.
damn.
tried on that shiny-font green shirt at bossini
but the cutting made me look like an auntie.
no offense.
i said me.
in the end also never buy anything.

i'm very mad lar.
all those fuckers who tag to scold me on my tagboard
scold me in my face lar
who are you to care about my business
quit wasting your time to change me
and if you dont know the whole story you fucking dont make any comments
IT AIN'T FAIR OKIE
i'm already well affected by me and alan's affairs
when is it all your turns to give comments?
it's my business okie?
MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS ALRIGHT?
i like to write what i want on MY blog
once again, MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS.

yesterday went to find dear
and he had to tell me this "good" news
he said a gal asked for his contact number
and so he did.
argh, yes i'm mad.
then he said friend friend.
he said he tell me can liao ma.
i said yes, if u finish fucking her then you tell me?
tell me before-hand lar
freaks. sec 2 only wan take phone number from guys
childish. my boyfriend somemore.
screw you gal.
i leave you alone for so many days so that you can work to earn some money
then you tell me this.
tao yan ni lar!


but i forgave him that night.
dowan to make matters worse.
then the eileens in his life also make me unhappy
his colleague that one nvm lar
she's a good girl.
then i still haven forget he ask another eileen to go home with him
if i see them together how?
how how how?
i also haven forget another eunice that calls him baby
damn it.
then in the end he only know how to sweet-talk.
arghhh
then the stupid fucking sylvia.
keep contacting him
bitch bitchhhhhhh.
i will have a cat fight with you.
use voodoo doll poke you like hell.

there's a hole in my heart.
you can guarantee it will take a long time to heal.

i think i will work 5 days next week.
apparently he ain't free anymore.
before holidays he said the last weekend of the holidays he will acc me.
dowan you to, i go my popo ahma house.
i know you will want to work
i dowan to give myself hopes and wait for u to shatter them
he says he needs to go back to school some days for project next week
fine.
then he says he will work some days next week
fine.
can i ask something?
how many days are there in a week?
i rather make myself some money
im obviously poorer than u.
given my family financial status.

my dad still haven go back to work!
the stupid guy who's harassing my family
put lobster and flour on my father's car!
and vandalise the walls of our HDB saying we owe him money!
who wan to owe u this fat spectacled bastard money?
gimme i also throw at ur face!
BASTARD!
then my parents comes complaining to me
then throw his temper here and there!
enough lar!
as if i can do something?
kill him for you?!

i still owe esther 20 bucks
alan 10 bucks.
haix.
then tonight go play pool.
ask dave along but he fucking wan to pei his cha bor
damn piss me off.

i feel like letting go of everything.
i'm fucking tired, seriously.
my life's never been happy.

but i was once a happy girl.
when i was 4 years old.
no studying. everyone loves me.
now everyone bo hiu me.
i'm a sad little girl.

woots
back to update hehe
went to work at cine pushcart today
darn tired.
esther came to find me!
and we went back together
wahaha. so sweet rights.
then darling keep missing me today
i so shy =x
tmr make a trip to send you home okie?
pei you sleep also okie?
hehe. muacks honey. lovelove<3
i seem happier during holidays right
hehe
all crazy with madness.
must be caused by xuan xuan lars.
she bought chocolates for her BENdito!
lolx. and i receive half a packet of hello panda.
haha. kiddin lars.
acc her to the pet hospital.
saw one dog with his eyes bleeding!
sadded`
get well soon doggie.
i got flu again. sighs.
so uncomfortable.

oh yea, last saturday went to baoling's 21st chalet
haha, she was so happy.
that's good. lolx.
happy birthday ah bao!
you are finally free! (:

i miss my dearie.
very very much.
he hao liao liao lars. lolx.
got so much money liao.
it's ur turn to feed me, hubby =x
yes! friday to swensens! weee~

lolx.
back from shopping with esther.
so long never see her liaox!
hahax.
she has definitely upgraded herself
lolx, to lotsa damn expensive stuffs.
haha. it was a wide-eyed outing for me
since i have never even stepped into gucci, prada, LV u know wat.
so expensive were their things.
one LV strap that cost a freaking $305
well, esther bought one gucci de, $98.
lolx. she likes it.
saw an esprit bag, love it, but too much for my budget
i borrow $20 from esther, to buy a white bag. $35.
promises to return her next week when my pocket money comes

was so tired walking the whole of town
that i went home first.
dont disturb the two of them also lolx.

dear never contact me the whole day.
hai.
sadded.

finally
i'm updating my blog.
hahax.
yesterday had a fun day with dear
really feel very happy being with him.
hehe
we played idioms yesterday
and we came up with such funny ones that we were laughing our asses off
lolx.
for example when he say use the word "cow" to form a six-word idiom
i said, "cow eat grass, grass eat cow!"
lolx. in chinese lar.
he laugh till so happy. lolx.
nice to see him laugh lolx.
his family always call him the laughing buddlha LOL.

i think i got sensitive skin
firstly i have 1 bug sucking on my blood
and its damn swollen
i already have an elephant leg
plus the sores -.-
then when i woke up i find new rashes
damn itchy also.
what are these signs?
am i down with some illness or something?

had our cpp practical test today
because of some mistake we actually got such a huge tip.
lolx. forget it.

our 10th monthsary is coming!
i'm very happy lolx.
faster reach one year! hehe.
during the 2 weeks break, we shall have some precious time together
love my honey =)

lolx.
dear asked me to update
so here i am.

my practical test's a gone case
darn, why that tricky?
sighs. practical tests hold so much percentage.
i gonna flung. i must do my theory well.
invigilators said they will consider our codes.
will they? i commented it. but will they still consider?

upcoming thurs comes another killer test
cpp
that "cute" teacher sent us a long mail telling us bout some basic stuffs for the test
his subject title wrote:
"P.S Btw the module leader has not release anything bout the test."
-.-
wow. you are interesting huh.
waste my time read thru so much crap.
sighs.

dear's working on fri sat sun.
haix. i must find some entertainment again.
sat evening to baoling's chalet.
before that maybe go buy her present.
tt's it lor.
holidays start = start of boredom.

can someone recommend me any other jobs?
i've been making so many mistakes at starhub that i dont dare to go back already =/
i dont want to be waitresses.
i have a phobia of holding those cups and heavy plates.
perhaps other than this, i should be fine with anything.
i'd love paperwork.
maybe marking kid's papers. hehe.
lovely and relaxing.

i'm bored.
i need money.

yesterday after school went to play pool with dear dear
of course after some squabbles then he agreed to go
says he shy sia, if he lost me
in the end he lost 3 games out of 5
lol, but if i say out of all the 5 games i hit in the black ball?
MHAHA.
he was so cute yesterday,
while arranging the balls. haha.
battery was low ytd, if not i sure post it here
hehe. so cute.

today-
i'm so bored.
it's a saturday,
supposedly to be happy?
because it's a free non-school day?
mummy and kareen went to visit grandma!
yea she's discharged already.
smiles-
but they leave me alone =`(
makes me feel worse.
never been so bored.
i need to go out!!!!!!!
yea, bubble tea. hehe.
here i come.
then maybe i go visit dear at his workplace.
then start studying ba.

my uncle's been cremated already.
think it was ytd or the day before.
rest in peace uncle.
sorry i couldnt send you off.
daddy prefers me in school.

sigh
what's wrong with me and dear nowdays?
are we drifting apart? yes
no more topics to share? yes
he thinks it's a torture to talk about our sweet past?
is it, really?
talk about it?
i'll be the one snapping at him again.
then i'll cry.
each time i'm angry with him, my heart breaks.
i really dont want to ignore him.
i dont know what to do.
im very lonely.

i dread EVERY breaktime during school
cause it's my lonely time.
some skip classes and asked me along.
i wont do it. it's against my principles.
i paid so much for all these lessons.
i dont want to waste a single cent.

i'm agonising
i wrote everything here cuz i have no one to turn to
nobody even wants to lunch with me.
even when i kindly gave them my java codes.
i was so hungry, gastric pains.
yet no one cares. i became totally quiet.
i bought bubble tea. trying to lift my mood.
saw geraldine see from campus superstar.
didnt care. moodless.
even da chang jin is leaving.
the drama is ending.

i am ending too.
i will slowly walk away.
from every little thing.