I HATE GIGI OF UNCLE RINGO.

i had the weirdest dream this morning
i dreamt that singapore had a natural disaster
and i was on a bus towards plaza singapura
alongside with people my age to perform some event
it was all lighting and floods
the bus was going forwards and i looked back
and saw one big stretch of lighting
got my friends to see but they were too slow
or the lighting was too fast
ping was on the bus with me
den i saw something worse
buildings got outlined by lighting and it collapsed 5 seconds later
cars got it too, one by one and i quickly ushered the driver to speed
along the way i saw people with towels
but it was really just one fact
either get striked by lighting when you avoid the flood
or get drowned when you avoid the lighting.
it's only choosing one way of dying
i told the driver i rather choose lighting
at least it's faster
drowning is so unbearable
called ping, i din know when she was missing
and she said she's safely at sengkang
i said ok and hung up.
but yes, we managed to escape on a cab later and reach changi airport
where we heard there are planes evacuating us to other countries
we were helped by myammar people, that girl being the driver
she drives well, zooming like daytona
and lol i asked that girl if she's tinzah
my classmate.
she said no, a pretty little thing she
said she destroyed her baby in her tummy so that it didnt need to suffer the disaster
we were full of anguish for her
then reached the airport
didnt know what happen but was ushered up to a room
(rooms in changi airport???)
a little girl was there, crying
it was then known her mother had just died
and she was flipping the diary
reminiscing the moments

that was all,
i couldn't remember anything else, haha

these couple of days are pretty boring for me
earning 20 bucks to teach my sister tution
but giving my mum 20 bucks to pay for my hp bill
my bill's only $30.45
cute huh she,
nobody's earning anything.
my series of nokia phone came out with the latest design!
and the flip one is so ever gorgeous!
and it's pink! 3G! supports up to 2GB of external mem.
3 megapixel with auto focus!
awwwwwwww.
i wish i hadn't buy mine!
it looks big, but i haven seen the real piece
i want it, it's perfect.

had class today,
was so bored cause the whole day was practically full of lectures
since 10 am

i actually had nothing to blog
but since im bored,
shall think of some witty things to think about

write down 7 weird things:
- our school's toilet seat is squarish, to help us balance and not fall inside the porcelain bowl?
- i once saw a trans-sexual in 2 high ponytails, short pink skirt and
stockings when i first introduced alan to lot one
- i bang on the tank to attract my tortoise to food alr inside
- someone DID really die of laughing
- a china fellow taller than yao ming can step on me like spongebob on plankton.
- slugs hatching in a young boy's body
- why xiaxue is so famous and gets money for blogging

gotta shit

had 2 days of celebration! xD
firstly, on the 23rd,
we went kbox with dear's friends.
screamed our lungs out. lolx!
somemore it was one of his friend's treat,
and pool too!
about more than 100 bucks!
he pro! lolx.
was so tired that i flopped down in bed almost immediately when i reached dear's house.
he cooked maggi mee for me,
as 'shou xin mian'
he cook for me once in a million years,
thanks for that LOL
haha, it was great.

on the 24th~
the birthday girl!

which is me!
then the next day dear took me out
i was practically dolling myself up for a couple of hours
lolx. poor thing he.

SETTING OFF! xD


ON THE WAY! hell 188, we waited for almost 45 mins



dear look like a poster =x


few more pictures,
i was actually taking pictures of myself
den dear pop in!



we went vivo city
but it was hell loads of people,
i couldn't enjoy walking in peace lol.
shall go there peacefully next time xD
then we met up with my buddies in our class for steamboat
wanted to go zheng fa but it was so smoky can,
so went chong pang,
but, i would recommend you all not go there cuz the utensils are utterly dirty
it's so unhygienic
and go in toilet need 20 cents.
make me sad. haha.
the food there wasnt that great either,
i still prefer zheng fa =D




theodore says, can you stop taking my picture? =x


me and theodore


pool next xD



the gang who celebrated my birthday with me =D




thanks peeps!
for all the presents and greetings!
seriously appreciated everything you all have done!
in making my 18th birthday so special,
love you all!!
smuacks xD

today-
went to town to change the everlast jacket they gave me as a present
cuz what they gave me was too small.
lolx.
im NOT fat, haha.
then it rained!
we were drenched from head to toe
everyone in heeren's were staring at us as if we are ghosts
blame the rain larx
i never ask the sky to rain today sia. haha =x
wanted to buy my heels
but my size is horrible.
they didn't have stock,
so i left my number behind, haha.
call me soon! hula and co!
oh yea, im a size 40, size 8 or 9 =D
so it's very very hard to buy shoes.
am i sad? YES. definitely.

ok, blog up till here,
dear need to use the comp soon,
he's bored. hehe.

school work is already starting to pile up.
with my new grouping,
i sincerely hope things would turn out for the best.

started to have low self esteem once more
i tried so many clothes today at home
none of which seems to fit my body frame
and my ugly pumpy trimmed hair made my image worse
nothing seems to fit.

oh yea,
im back to blogging.
thanks to glenn who helped re-format my lappie.

im feeling quite down.
not knowing what to think.

went out with my besties on sat
had a thrilling and totally gals' night
i never had such a night for so long
the lovliest moment was they giving me a early bday surprise
it was so sweet! xD
they gave me a ettusais blusher! a face mask and a brush.
hahaha. totally love it.
then we had our very memorable girls talk.
lolx. it was as though we were still sec 2,
sitting down in the cafeteria drinking our fav green tea
reminicising our best moments,
talking the baddest things about guys,
and laughing our hearts out.
it feels good,
a feeling i hadn't experienced in the longest time
was glad they accepted me back
though prolli they din know that i really did missed them for the past few years
but am really glad that we are still the same after all.
my very own lovely group of besties.
call me if ya need any ears,
im always here! xD

junjie and sianglung decided to join us after our gals talk
with jose trying to spite them away cuz we still want our girls' talk!
unsuccessful though, lolx.
went to clarke quay and caught a glimpse of night life
cause im 18 soon! grins-
had some drinks at tcc
and played some games
still declaring ourselves not tired
me and kez decided to pop over junjie's house to play daidee.
dear came too,
he played WE10 with sl.
but sl got defeated! hahaha
i told you he is a real pro. lolx.
we played big small, laugh our asses off
and drank quite a lot of vodka!
i kept running to the loo. haha.

went to nyp to try my luck in getting my books
in the end it wasnt open.
arghhhs.
hopped back to cck
and slept my fullest to 6 pm.
lolx.

at night
i went dear's house
got into a very stupid tiff
and he walked away real fast
leaving me alone in the dark of 12 am
i didn't know what came over me
i decided not to follow him.
sitting down alone at the void deck
thinking aimlessly.
he found me in the end.
talked it out, and things were fine again

but i miss him today
i dunno why.

had a happening day during work
me and peiyi were shuffled to and fro from yck to cuppage
lolx.
ate pizza again!
but cold ones.
hahaha.
almost puked taking bus 19o today
really cant take bus man.

alrights.
thats all i guess xD

im back!
hehehe, my comp's not ready
still spoilt.
hate it.

now at dear's house
he's playing games, as usual.

gonna chill out with the threesome later at town
at about 8 pm.
late huh, haha.
i've never been to town at such a late hour before.
lolx.
wondering what would they wear.
will take plenty of pics! xD

didnt get to sentosa on wed again
cuz the sky was so dark
and it drizzled.
i was so disappointed.
how many times were this outing cancelled.
seriously, i jus wanna chill out at the beach,
cuz there isn't any buildings there
i could relax my heart out

went to bugis on thurs with ruping
we shopped till we dropped!
was so so tired
bought the same bag as her,
of cuz owing her first,
and the honey-n-bee tube lookalike
hahax. $14 only.
make me smile like shit. haha.
my bag costs $24.
sounds good. hee.

im already tired now.
my eyes are so sleepy.

had been working for an intensive 7 days
tired and worn out.
however, school is starting soon
and i needed the cash soon.

luck has been down on my side again
up and down is all i experienced.
couldn't it be ups all the time?
got ticked off so many times by my ic today.
was getting unhappy cuz i was practically doing half of the total sales today
me and peiyi
felt unfairly treated cuz they were having so much fun outside
and there were only a few sales people inside.
shouldn't it be the other way round?
yea, i teared.
but silently.
i'm so good at it that nobody noticed.

went home today
was at dear's house for the couple of days cuz my work's at town
so i need not wake up that early to reach town.
grins-
had a comfortable couple of nights in dear's arms.
he never fails to make me feel safe.
and today he sent me to work
so sweet, thanks hunk =D
and ohh, i found a new babe in a magazine
which i've forgot it's name
debbie wong!
omg, she's THAT hot! lolx.

why isn't the school timetable out yet?

two of my most obssessed songs nowadays
tank + selina: du chang qing ge



my fav at the moment
hebe + fei lun hai

i have a very weird feeling of being sick really soon.
something choking in my throat
awful ulcer in the insides of my mouth
cant even drink properly.
and extreme fatigue
arghhh.

there's a repeat of 'say i do' on channel u
1230 am!
it's a girl proposing to a guy in the aquarium at wisma atria.
damn sweett.
bravos for the courageous girl! =D

im missing my darling already.
went shopping in town just now
was so crestfallen cuz i couldn't find anything i like!
when i did not have the money i fell in love with so many things
when i had the money i had nothing to spend on.
arghh.

i think recruit express miscalculated my pay
darn.
gonna have a hectic schedule for the next few days
which is good cuz it takes my mind off things.
thanks dear,
for always being there for me.
sorry i din acc you to have your haircut,
was really tired.. sorry =/
thanks yupei
for offering me to go ur house chat =D
but i think i would be too tired to pop over lehs
lolx.
thanks for your concern yea?

talked about future during our roadshow
with my ic and another temp staff.
i told them i wanna have a peaceful and comfortable life when im married.
that i wanna earn lots of money so that i wont be bothered by money issues
then they reminded me not to be money-obssessed.
am i?
i dont think im up to that yet.
cuz im still spend some but the amount will still tend to run out
seriously i dunno where all my money went.
i just really want to live comfortably, that's all.
without quarrels with my husband over bills
and fretting over bills each night before i go to sleep.
i dowan all these.
and i wont have children till im financially prepared.
i dowan my child to suffer.

ok lar,
too much about the future
i may just die before i have that kind of life lol.
now i shall just focus on my studies
and aim for what i wan to achieve without giving up.
naruto shall be my cartoon motivator.
i shall follow his determination ^^v

alrights,
off to bathe and watch tv.
tmr gonna wake up darn early.
and work one full day.

seriously i felt like letting it all out
i totally loathe staying at home my house
fark it.
i have a mother who dresses skimpily and always asking people ard her if she's younger than me
showing off how young she is
FREAKO.
why should i be happy about having a mum who accidentally gave birth to me?
and now she keeps blowing her top
fark it lar.
WHY LET IT OUT ON US?!
if its ur own problem i dont wanna care an inch!
now my father doesn't work
and he shouts at us with the slightest thing
even over a packet of noodles
WAT FOR!
DARN! how much am i going thru now that i suddenly have no expenses to spend?
i had to starve during work
my ic asks me to eat and i will give excuses that i had no appetite!
all because i dont have money!
colleagues ask me out for supper
i couldn't cuz i have NO MONEY!
i cant even simply get used to having no 50 bucks per week
and 45 bucks to fork out for travel expenses
and every pay i get YOU RAISE YOUR HAND OUT FOR SOME
as if i have enough? huh?
who am i exactly surviving for?
i receive NO LOVE the moment i was born
if you cant support the whole family why then give birth to so many?
to let us suffer tgt with you?

i feel like leaving home
i can
im paying for my own school fees now i had 1000 bucks sponsored
i had good grades but receive NO compliments.
i showed you my results and you farking ask GOT MONEY OR NOT
i received the bursary successfully and you farking ask WHEN AM I GETTING IT
WHY THE FARK IS WRONG WITH YOU AND MONEY!
IF YOU CARE SO MUCH ABOUT MONEY WHY NOT ABORT ME IN THE FIRST PLACE HUH?!
I HATE STAYING AT THIS HOUSE!
IT FARKING STINKS!

seriously,
i thought of how i should thank my 'parents' when i got married
people thank them for bringing them up and loving them
all i can remember is HOW SHE HITS AND HITS ME JUST TO GET ME TO HAVE GOOD RESULTS
AND SHOW ME OFF TO ALL THOSE AUNTIES
my sisters now have everything they want
and now they grow up to be people with attitude
farking attitude that's unchangeable and unbearable
ME? scars physically and scars in the heart.
when i had relationship problems and slitted my wrists
WHERE WERE THEY WHEN MY BLOOD FLOWED?
and farking ask me if i am still a virgin
WHAT CAN I TELL THE PEOPLE HOW 'GREAT' MY PARENTS ARE?
that she scolds the hell out of me and ask me to clean up my own vomit when i'm sick?what the fuck lar.
i hate hate hate staying at home.
i gladly thank them for letting me know that this is the feeling to HAVE parents.
this kind of bias, unloving parents.
i wish to run away.