Sunday, December 31, 2006 @ 9:48 PM
Year 2006:

Another year has gone and i gonna do some flashbacks on this year,
i'm not going to name anybody except alan

at the starting of the year,
i brought alan to meet all my relatives for the first time
during new year and to take red packets
spent happy days collecting red packets together
mhahahaha.
recently went to mos for the first time,
and sadly to say, i dont like it!
went hooters instead.
and we chilled out almost every saturday
to accompany some gunnndoo watch soccer.
attended more birthday bashes than last year
to watch my friends get their legal age of 18!
and christmas bash,
it was heartwarming for the get together,
the exchange of chocolates, the bbq,
the melting of the pail meant for the bbq,
and every little thing.
and also sec school's chalet,
i went there with a huge pimple i remember (:
and also the efk bbq,
those gatherings were always that heartwarming.

me-
been losing my temper very often during school
prolli due to the stress in school and all those demanding projects pilling on us.
and cash-flow problems,
those around me will know
how hard i am trying to survive
i didn't cry alot this year,
compared to last year,
cause i have a lovely darling
who's always there for me (:
my birthday was a real surprise from my sec school mates
and i would never forget that day.
and i finally had the courage to participate in a singing competition
and got it tops (:
and btw i hate girls who are always trying to steal alan from me.

friends-
friends come and go,
and made me see who are the real friends,
the hypocrites,
the sadness which filled my heart
when the ones whom i thought would remember didn't
the ones whom i thought are were real friends,
and some friends whom i thought i would have the same homely feeling again
but then again i realise it isn't possible anymore
cuz i have left them for too long.
and the best ones left are my dear alan, and a couple few in my class.
whom i open my heart to speak with.

family-
one of my relatives left us when he went for a busines trip in brazil
he had a heart attack.
departures are always that depressing.
but im glad his family are coping well.
attended a wedding dinner and gonna attend another next year (:
it's always good to know new lives are coming into the world soon.
babies (:
my family is still facing financial problems
i hate it cuz i dont even have money to eat recently
and right at the other side of singapore someone is winning 4D
and not sharing any ):

singapore-
so many people committed suicide at the train tracks
floods getting the second highest ever in history
stupid GST increase
professionals getting old and leaving the world?
leaving the young ones to fend,
are great are we?

world-
bird flu, sars, whatever flu whatever flu
all those flus must be condemned!
may all patients recover,
and may peace prevail.

to all,
may those unhappy ones be happy
may those sick ones be healthy
may those poor ones be better well-off soon
may those who hadn't strike 4d strike soon
may those who fail in things pick up their feet
may those who are young grow up in the right track
may those leaving the world be strong enough to battle
may those who have their loved ones treasure one another
may those who have splitted families have reunions soon
may all diseases go missing from the world and never be found
may natural disasters get extinct
or our internet would have problems again
may there be no other stray animals in the world
may money fall from the sky soon
may plants and insects dont die fragily

for all is to love is loved.
just like me have alan (:

that's my wish for all.
for myself,
i would wish to be more happy, and slightly richer.
every other things i am satisfied with, (:

happy new year to all (:
remember that staying happy is all that is important!
okays, that shall be all.

Friday, December 29, 2006 @ 9:06 PM
finally i came back to blog,
since the holidays started,
i hadn't got any time to spare during the hols,
was so so busy, lol.

for the first week of holidays,
went back to school for wss training,
learnt a lot of things that i did not learn before.
was a fruitful one.

on tuesday,
went to celebrate kezia's birthday
she's all grown up now that she's 18!
happy belated girl!

on wednesday,
went to glenn's house for class bbq,
as well as celebrate liangfa's birthday
had plenty of fun and lots lots of food.
got a lot of chocolates =x
thanks vincent,janet for the christmas present!
wait for mine soon! xD
learnt a bit of mahjong,
lolx.
went back at 6 and finally tucked into bed at 7 plus,
slept all the way to 7 too. at night. hee hee.
pig hor, lol.
but i was disturbed by about 10 calls while i slept.
so it wasnt quite a nice sleep.

i have a new wishlist and new year resolutions!
and im going bankrupt soon!
sighs-
will blog frequently now, =D

Thursday, December 14, 2006 @ 12:00 AM
i know im not smart
i was never good at programming
if i were that good i would have achieve 4 for my GPA
i know being hardworking isn't enough
you got to be smart,
but i ain't
so stop forcing me to be smart.

Monday, December 11, 2006 @ 5:18 PM
miss tan soon keow just gave me a call
asking if i would like to further my studies almost immediately after poly
of course!
as fast as possible!
so while dear is in NS,
i can still study,
and when i graduate from university,
i shan't get looked down anymore
especially that cousin of mine
arghhhh-
lol, she let me choose which Uni i wan go also,
i chose NUS, or NTU.
both are fine. heh

celebrated vincent's bday on saturday
first we went to plaze singapura to catch de ja vu
the show wasn't exactly close to what i thought de ja vu was
the show was about a crime which took place with the main actor itself
but he din know it was him.
while i have always thought that de ja vu is the feeling of being at the place before but in reality, i havent
so i din really understand the show after all.

after which we went on for a feast at pizza hut
we ordered the merry feast and the family feast
with a total of 3 large pizzas!
we were really darn full after that.

then we went on to MOS!
the tremendous, horrible, ugly, sweaty queue pissed us off
we went in search for a pub but none are appealing.
finally we decided to get the chop first then accompany vincent for awhile
cuz he couldnt get in cuz he was one day away from 18 years old. lol.
the sadness.
the getting-a-chop-first decision killed us
cuz once we're in the barrier,
there was no way to get out
sweats of other people came raining down on us
and skins touched each other
it was that squeezy.
my friend actually named MOS - ministry of stinking sweat!
lolx.
and im really darn curious of what's going on inside
and i regretted.
prolli because there were so many people,
i went there being afraid,
petrified by the loud music and choked by the smoke
with horny couples and extremely high dancers
so we decided to get out after 10 minutes of roaming
there, there goes my virgin clubbing.
i believe that wasnt the full of MOS,
cuz i only went to the first 2 levels
is that all? is it that small?
lol. i must explore better next time.

took cabbie back to dear's hse at 3 am
and had a good night's sleep.
the next morning at 9 am,
went to ah ma house to celebrate her birthday
was so sleepy there, i slept while watchin the repeat telecast of the 43th golden horse awards.
saw my rainie, hee.
so tired,
i woke up late today
but rushed to school on time. lol.
the tireness!

alrights,
that's prolli all i need to update.
im still tired.
lol.

Thursday, December 07, 2006 @ 11:47 PM
DE JA VU!

this will be one question i will ask whoever i will be speaking to when i die.

is it true that we are living in a dimension
and another me is living somewhere and that in my dreams, i am that ME?
and i will NEVER ever meet the other ME?

i dreamt of so many things,
the one troubling me the most is alan's death.
i am so scared, i really dowan that to happen.
nono way.
if i can stop it, i will.
i swear i will.
alan lee is so dear to me.
i dowan him to meet any trouble.

or is it messages sent from heaven that we must treasure the people ard us?
couple of times, reminders after reminders.
we MUST treasure the ones around us.
is it this?

de ja vu is such a frightening thing.
you realise u have been to this place before,
when u know you hadnt in ur real life.

am i going to see my future through this?
i dowan.
i rather not know.

oh ya,
regarding the 3rd year specialization,
after much consideration and filtering of options
i decide to venture into Financial Informatics
going towards business.
hopefully i can do well in it.
dear chose Bio Informatics
it's good that he's able to choose what he like - science.
it's good to see him pursue what he like xD
must teach me ok? i like science,
they are always waiting to be discovered,
with a million things that i still do not know.
fill me with it =)
but the bad thing is i can never score in science
i am that bad, haha.

friends! let me know what you all chose!

Tuesday, December 05, 2006 @ 12:17 AM
din update for a thousand years,
here's some;

finally completed the awful napfa test today
6 tests to go through
and needless to say,
we din do much warm-up and ended up with cramps.
and yea, so i did fail the 2.4 km run and shuttle run.
i failed shuttle by 00.01 mini-milli seconds.
pretty sad huh. i wasnt given a second try but heck.
it's only a trial. lol.
the 2.4 was steady at first, till i began to have breathing difficulties
i gave up at the 5th round and walked.
thus i failed. lol. 18 mins plus. grrr.

completed the awful SWENG practical too.
that was really awful especially with a so-not-understanding teacher.
i understand what you said was correct
but did you ever try to understand that we were never told of that lifeline thing by our ooad teacher?
did you know our ooad teacher told us the lifeline wasnt important?
roars-
if i have claws i swear i'll scratch him.
no matter i try explaining that we were really told of that
he insisted that other class knew this
so what? we dont have the same ooad tutor as ur THAT other class had
roarrrrrs-

decided to take up the WSS training with liangfa
we must jia you tgt okie xD
training turns out to occupy my precious holiday from 18th to 22nd.
9 - 4pm with pretty reasonable breaks.
i'll miss my baby.

i receive another bday present today,
by yupei! thanks baby!
i love it =D

just found out about me and alan's compatibility in our relationship.
scorpio and virgo.
turns out to be pretty accurate and believable cuz it really speaks of our characters.
the favourable thing is, we are a good match!
that's the good thing to know.
hee.
not like that time at sec 1 and 2 chalet
i had the fate of not knowing me and alan's relationship issues.
one time was not accurate cuz the shuffler did it wrongly
and the second time my pig toppled the cards.
grrrrrrrrrrrr-
but anyway, if it's that bad,
i wont want to know either.
but i dont believe it if its bad.
cuz i get really well with alan lee
never got so well with any one of my boyfriends before,
he's the first, and the last in my life.
i gonna marry this guy. =)
oh yea, i should really slap myself.
i dreamt that he died again
after we quarrel, he took pills and committed suicide.
arghhhhhhhh.
i quickly woke up and hugged him.
but he worse,
he dreamt that he had sex with another girl who had a bf
who both kidnapped him.
roars while laughing-
i think we should compile our dreams sometime and make it into a movie.
it'll be good.
my previous dreams bout floods and thunder in s'pore,
lee kuan yew talking to me about the death of s'pore in 400+ days,
the presence of UFO and me pointing it to mr lee kuan yew
alan dying in my dreams more than thrice
and lots lots more.
but all those deaths in my dreams really made me treasure dear more.
but pls pls pls,
dont ever let it happen.
this i beg to whatever gods there are in heaven.

im really tired after the napfa.
i shall take a good night's sleep.
good night papa,
good night mama,
good night dear,
good night friends,
good night cuzzies,
i will jot down what i dream tonight.

no pictures.
prolli after wed,
i shall upload we posing for death note's poster, for fun
and saturday's outing to celebrate vinc's bday,
cheers-