thanks peeps,
im feeling alot better already
im just deciding whether i should be angry with the folks who want to create a game based on my pimples and my beloved kinder bueno.

let's salute them with a middle finger.

finally,
my project is finishing soon,
just that i probably dont have time to do another optional use case.
heck.
im seriously very tired.
redo UI, and some touching up and validation.
i need retail therapy, voice therapy and moneyy.

daddy doesnt love us actually.
im glad i know it now.
but memories of him and me when im young,
seems to contradict this fact.
but still,
he said it.
he said the deadly sentence.
i shall keep this sentence to myself.
cuz my sisters might be reading all this.
and they shouldnt know.
and they wont understand.

now he's the one not at home all day long,
goodness knows what he's doing,
out with some girls?
drinking beer with friends?
gambling?
what things can make him go out every night?
he cant go back to m'sia to work once more,
and our family back to dire straits.
when can i start to have a good life?
to not worry about money and food and glorious shopping?
i'm being deprived of everything i need to make me happy.

maureen was once a happy girl.
ever since problems start to surface,
she has turned into a depressed girl.
though not showing it at home, or anywhere
she pitied her mum.
and she blames herself.
for when she was about to be aborted,
a decision by her daddy,
mummy kept her.
mummy endures daddy's volcano temper through this 20 years.
all because mummy kept her.
if she hadn't been born,
mummy would not need to endure daddy,
mummy would have been with someone else who could give her the happiness she always wanted.
it's all because mummy kept her.
that her sisters too,
are deprived of a happy family they have always imagine.
it's all her fault.
mummy says she wants to divorce daddy when we all grow up.
which was expected.
she is sure her sisters knew.
but she cannot imagine her old daddy all alone,
regretting his past.
she cannot imagine what would happen if her daddy had accidents in a flat.
nobody, nobody to care for poor old daddy.
and she would sit down with old photo albums in her lap
with tears that made her vision blur,
as she flips through happy times.
and it's all because mummy kept her.

im munching on pringles now,
feeling bored.
but a little bit more relaxed after knowing our exams are approximately one mth from now.
im need retail therapy!
omg omg, let me win 4D lar can??? =/
even angbaos cant let me survive.
the most i get is only $200.
and stupid recruit express doesnt want to call me for work.
i want go sing again.
who got vouchers?

money can cure 90% of my stress
money money,
why are u so important?
there are some things money cant buy
but for everything else, there's mastercard.
i dont even have mastercard.
so i aint got everything else.
arghhhh-

my grades are slightly dropping,
no nO NO.
im not gonna allow it.

pics from jose's bday!

the special girl! (:


we had sparkling juice, not wine, relax
heeehehehe


cheers! that sl gunndooo,
our actions totally reversed,
super funny hahahah



three nutcases




kc was sad because he didnt have any more cake to eat


i cant help but think kc looks like a lunatic in this pic =x


he loves sianglung so much they needed to share 1 jacket like this


and i love jose so much i almost needed to kiss her =P


me and junjie,
we were trying to make jose tired! hahaha


me and the lovely birthday girl!


finally!
very worn out now!


did i mention we sang till 3am?
we even decorated the place!
hahaha. that was on the 15th.

went kbox again today!
had fun though it was only for 2 hrs, haha.
ordered super lots of titbits! that vin! lol.
saw one super big room with super big screen and a pool table!
very nice! hahaha.
next time we shall all go together!
the people listed here:

- me
- kezia
- rebecca
- josephine
- kc or wc
- junjie
- sianglung

i believe we need more people cuz the room needs a min people of 10,
i guess x=

watched Death Note: The Last Name before we went kbox
very nice show!
it's about death books,
when you write a name inside,
and write down the cause of death within the next 6 mins 40 secs
the person will die,
as what you stated.
very interesting,
with it's twists and turns,
but i din think kira was doing a crime,
he was merely upholding justice,
he doesnt deserve to die!
directors! make kira come back to life!

another hectic week's over
and here comes another.

after filming jose's project,
which were seriously tiresome but enjoyable days late into the night,
we celebrated her birthday at kbox
and i ate pieces of cakes every day since friday
lolx.
jose! how was it to have 4 different flavors of cakes for your bday?
hahahaa.

then came the tedious tests.
after a week of SWENG and J2EE,
each comprising of 5% and 10% respectively
and system demo of our project.
which 'happily' earned us a just-pass.
i believe.

monday was submitting an ugly system screen shot of our project.
which gonna happily eat up another 10% of our grade.
tuesday was DMID test, 5%
wednesday, which is today, OS test, 15% (horrible percentage)

next week is J2EE 35% test (more terrible)
and OS 3% practical test
sighs.
how many more pimples am i gonna have from all the stress...
arghhh.

oh yea,
dear thoughtfully came over on sat cuz he knows i miss him
and he wrote me a love letter with kinder bueno!
OH how much i love you darling,
thanks thanks thanks!
you brighten up my day even though i had a really tired day.
thanks!

shall post up all those pictures i took over the past few days next time.
(:

finally attended my favourite cousin's wedding!
lots more photos this time cuz i was kpo
went even for the fetching of bride
heeheehee

here goes:
SHAOFENG & CONNIE
WEDDING DAY
07/01/2007

early in the morning at 6 o'clock
the bridegroom rushes to get ready
and there he was in a very shy state
covering his precious chest embarrassingly



their pretty pretty wedding photos






SENG!
look at this wedding pic!
they are wearing liverpool jersey!! super cute right?
this's the cutest wedding photo i've ever seen!
kudos to their creativity! (:





finally!
time to set off!
the wedding car


one 'brothers' shot before setting off!


finally reached!
the groom had a hard time of 40 mins getting teased before allowing to enter

the brothers cheered him on


he got to wear a disposable panty as a forfeit cuz he couldn't pick out which tissue had connie's lip mark on!
poor thing!



the sisters demanded more "sincerity" in angbaos!
the groom got it all prepared and let them pick their choice!

let into the hse but need to suck a pacifier and sing their love song!


finally,
he got his wife!


off to their love nest!


took a pic with the beautiful bride!


went back home and rest before setting off for their wedding lunch at fullerton!
dolled myself up with my new rebonded and coloured hair
which i went with yeeteng the day before! x)
and i said goodbye to my pong pong hair!



me and dear,
he hadn't change into proper attire yet
slow poke

and i got all my full attire from my mum's wardrobe
except for my normal heels, haha.

and before the wedding lunch
we went up to Governor's Suite in the fullerton hotel
and was amazed at howww beautiful it is


look at the balcony
alan can even catwalk in there



that's about all,
didnt take many photos at the lunch cuz there were so many heads
and i was really tired.
lol.
happy union to shaofeng and connie,
and may you live happily ever after! (:
give me ur blessings for my poa test tmr!

im updating (:

finally started school
and i cant even how much stress im having already
by waking up every morning to horrible sharp headaches
that deprived me of smiling every morning while taking in a breath of fresh air
it's not a simple headache,
i dont think panadols can cure
sharp, long headaches that appear as they like

anyway,
got quite a number of tests and projects submissions to rush through next week,
and after next week,
it's time to prepare for the holy papers.
got quite a couple of events to go too!
yet im undesirably excited to go for them
grins-

saturday, to meet up with darling yeeteng to do a hair makeover!
since new year's coming,
my hair muz be somewhat special right?
muahahaha
ok lar, it wont be very special.
it's gonna be another colour,
thats all.
i've decided on pink.
after all girls love pink, dont we?
just kiddin >.<

sunday, alan is even invited to attend my fav cousin's wedding dinner!
yiiippppppeeeeeeeee!
finally i wont be that lonely at dinners, (:
but this time is slightly special
it's at The Fullerton!
the hotel which S.H.E stayed at the last time they came!
hahahha, gonna enjoy myself in riches for that whole afternoon!
cuz it's not a dinner,
they are so thoughtful to think of others preparing for work and school on monday
and hence, not being afraid of gossips
prepared it on an afternoon.
but complaints from daddy, cuz he said he wont have the mood to drink beer
LOL.
i dont mind, as long as alan's with me,
heeheehee.

oh yesss,
even though this 2 days im fairly enjoying,
i need to put time aside to study poa on saturday evening.
after our hair thing, need to sleep early cuz im helping out on sun
weeeeee~ gonna take lots of pics and angbaos! xD
den prolli tmr i got to finish my poa project!
and also integrate our semester project tmr.
hope everything goes well..
i pray to whatever gods there are above.
let things go well for me this time.

and yes,
monday i gonna help jose in her project right after my poa test!
so i'm gonna be in NP!
look out for me hor! xD

and i've also finally went ktv with my sec school classmates!
with rer and chengwei mingyang etc etc
i havent hear them sing before!
kaijin is our future mr.FEI YU QING!
he sings well!
much to my surprise LOL.
and he and zhirong makes a good match,
their voices are in unision each time they sing tgt! lol.

also went with my dear,
hahaha, 3 hrs of just we two.
i treasure it, though i sound like a frog that day, hahaha

tuck myself ready to sleep.
nights! (: