im so bored so im here to blog.
it's freaking nice here at sentosa.
im really grateful to be here.
every evening, i go back tired but happy.
lol.

Last day at NYP pictures!











and the guys celebrated a belated glenn's bday (:




that's all.
will blog about my attachment soon!

last day in NYP!



will add more!

mistress wants to show you all how i looked like.
i am moo moo.
mistress's bolster at master's house.


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This was what mistress made for master.
beautiful isn't it?
she wished the paper hearts were glow-in-the-dark type!


i stole this pic from mistress's camera!
oooops.
they had this really fantastic looking Chocolate Truffle!
it was so heavenly.
even though i didn't had any.




now look at me!




maur: shit you moo moo. you are so "rectangularly" sexy.

happy birthday to dar!
one day late posted here cos was spending one whole day with you (:

pictures tmr!
had a series of surprises for him.
firstly, i bought the fcuk top approximately about one month ago.
then cooked soup for him at dinner time.
bought air pork's ribs and salted pickles for sze chuan soup.
and cut out tiny hearts in the pickles.
he was only given 1 though cos the other 2 was stolen by his family.
lmao.
while soaking the veg we hanged strings of hearts on his room's ceiling
credits to guangyi for climbing the ladder and being a guinea pig for my soup!
it was not bad after i drank it at night hor!
cos it was boiled longer. lol.
bought cake from chocz with courtesy from his sister's 50% voucher.
chocolate truffle-ness!
yummies.
and had a powerpoint + video incorporated to show him 1 hour before his bday
i know he have had a happy birthday (:

This was the quiz i shared last week!
scroll down for the answers!
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NAH dont try to cheat!

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nah lol (:

for some, ok, many reasons
i suddenly felt that things have been very fucking unfair.

evrything around me seems to have excluded me.
somehow.
especially things happening in school.

and nobody tags anymore

all i have to do is find a way back into love. <3

we may be really sticky now
cos when my attachment starts
i presume i wont be able to see daylight for about 3 months
all the travelling would possibly drain out all my resources to stay awake
then after awhile more he would be going for NS.
all these are prolli the main reasons why i frequent his house

we decided to have a chalet if the taiwan trip is impossible to go too
hai.

got a quiz to share!
i'll post the answers next week =D



have fun!

ooooo.
it's about 500.
blah. been bluffed that it was 1k.
dunno which dude.
though i keep emphasizing that its impossible
arghhh.

im so freaking stressed.
i dowan to eat.

i love my baby (:
he accompanied me at work again ytd :D

i feel like putting this in my resume





heard so that we are the first batch to work at ResortsWorld!
but i need to catch up on .net
there's what i heard.
need to reach there at 815 on the first day =(
815!!!!!!!
i super emo.
i prolli need to wake up at 5.
set off at 6.
reach harbourfront at 7.
reach sentosa at 730.
walk to office 745. SOBS.
maureen is such a poor little girl.
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SOBS SOBS.
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it ain't fun at all.
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SOBS SOBS SOBS.
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more details such as the pay to share next week.
got a briefing on tue or wed =D
FYPJ is wrapping up!
hoorayyyys!

heard this song for the first time on jose blog
lovely. suits my mood now.

Summer's ended and without a trace
Time goes by - while you remain
Funny how I thought I walked on through
With my heart in one
Chorus:

Why do I still cry for you
Dying to get close to you
Why do I still fear to face
The ghost of you

How I tried to get you off my mind
But you return - all the time
I believed I could just let you go
Like the fool I am

Chorus:

Why do I still cry for you
Dying to get close to you
Oh baby why do I still fear to face
The ghost of you

Bridge:

I've been trying to release you
To get my feet back on the ground
Still I need my hope to hold on to
Even if I know I should back away
It's just a part of me that I can't erase

Chorus:

Why do I still cry for you
Dying to get close to you
Why do I still fear to face
The ghost of you

Outro:

Baby, baby why
Anyway I try I'm still reminded
[The ghost of you]
Anywhere I go I keep colliding with
[The ghost of you]
I've given up I just can't find it
[The ghost of you]

Everytime I look away I see
The ghost of you

i'm trying so hard. the hardest i couldnt have done for anyone else.
i tried my best.
but i'm going terribly numb soon.





I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
They lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah Yeah

All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
Yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
And When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
mMm

terribly emo.

my heart's sick.

i know where am i attached already!

ResortsWorld @ Sentosa.
lol. weird right.
i'm not sure if i heard wrongly or has it become resourceworld or what.
haha.
but i'll definitely be excited to go resortsworld to work
it'll be exciting!
lmao. hopefully the pay will be good. =D

been slacking alot these few weeks.

been staying over for quite a number of days too.
dar accompanied me for work the whole day on sunday!
pretty sweet. we had lunch and dinner at my tiny pushcart.
cosyy! =D
thanks dar.
despite having some problems you still came and accompanied me through the lonely day.
hugs.

been contemplating if i should blame myself.
all the series of those happenings seem to have something to do with me.
you may not see it.
but i see it very clearly and it seems to be true.
and i certainly dont feel good about these.

i had really real and 'alive' dreams these few days too.
fatigued? maybe.
i dreamt about those happenings,
i dreamt my ex secondary school mate has cancer! i shan't name it.
but i am sincerely apologetic =/
but i cant control my dreams.

i dreamt we 3 were having lunch together,
and mr 1 was talkin to me about the happenings
and mr 2 was telling me he had to spend his upcoming bday alone
then i dreamt that an extremely white pure kitten is for sale.
50 dollars! i search around for my father to buy.
cheap right. lol.
but yeah i realised putting a heavy price for pets are reasonable.
cos if you dont have money, how you bring up your pet?

i seriously think all my dreams can be extracted individually
and make it into one whole movie.
they are all weird yet interesting.
like how my mum died after taking 'nan' during mahjong -.-
i woke up swearing i wont let her play mahjong lol.


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i cant help but feel he is blaming me for being in the plight he is in now.
being lonely and everything.
dont do that, it's fcuking unfair.
i need to stressed on this again, even after its been already a few months
i didn't left you for him, i left you cos of other reasons.
and you know it.
whats wrong with people loving you?
you are only refusing to open your heart.

hai.

lol photos!
tried some fake falsies! =D



self shots, again. =D