Thursday, September 25, 2008 @ 4:20 PM
YAY!
i didnt count for so many days,
now left only 1 day before dar books out! =D

am so happy.
hope dar can see our little room now beautifully decorated!
miss him so much!

we had a flea at Singapore Art Museum!
it was awesome, great sales again but can still be improved!
but hate the drain smell, the hot stuffy atmosphere and the irritating heels being stucked in the drain gaps.
i was practically swearing every other few mins my heels got stuck. lol.













kezia!



yupei!



you can hop over to kezia's blog for more pics of the flea! =D

like the bebe-inspired toga dress i'm wearing and the silver dress's kezia wore?
head down to divazelle next monday, 9pm =DD



have some other photos of myself... but i'm lazy to upload them, next week man!
=)

i think i have a pretty boring life.
work, divazelle, bf, snowie.
no time for friends, no time for play.
should i laugh or cry?

waiting patiently for baby to book out! =)

Sunday, September 14, 2008 @ 4:50 PM
DAY 2 OF TEKONG!

day 2!
dear woke up at 530am while i was still sleeping and need to chiong down by 545am to fall in.
poor thing.
heard yesterday that they are now practising "walking". lol.
now is 450pm. the skies look dark and i pray that it will rain at tekong so that dar need not do physical exercises then can prepare for dinner!
4 more hours to his call =D

dar called me yesterday!
had a very nice chat hehe.
so long didnt talk on the phone already =D
he was complaining his head is very big now with no hair
and look like a monk with that brown tank top.
can see that he is so not used to army life.
my poor boy.
will give you a big big hug once you are out! =)

12 days left!

ps. we might been welcoming new kittens to our house to replace baby. this time, i gonna seal all the windows.

Saturday, September 13, 2008 @ 8:02 PM
i will make the entries of my kitten go down.
the more i look the more i cry.
maureen, baby is doing well in heaven. he will grow up there and bless us.

DAY 1 OF TEKONG

Dear diary,

Let me wonder what dar is doing now,
it is 1957 hours and i guessed he is already botak and have received all the items that we were introduced to in the morning.
he might have already done a little physical training to warm up himself.
hopefully he have met some friends and pack and tidy his bunk.
hopefully he is also missing me with every bit of his spare time.
weeee it's 8pm and i can have his call soon! =DDD

baby i'm going to watch tv now.
i am missing you darn badly!
remember this song?

my darling lies over the ocean,
my darling lies over the sea,
my darling lies over the ocean,
oh bring back my darling to me,
bring back, oh bring back,
oh bring back my darling to me, to me,
bring back, oh bring back,
oh bring back my darling to me!


it greatly applies now! he IS over the great sea at a tiny island.
please bring back my darling to me! =(

dear, i dont see you online now and i do so wish to speak to u.
=(
i'm going to charge my phone now to wait for your call! Am looking forward to hearing your voice!

Love,
Maureen.

@ 6:48 PM
i miss my kitten. my daddy told me how it fell from the scratches it left at the window. i dont want to see it. i dont want to be reminded of how it hung there scratching in terror and struggling for it's little life. i cant help but picture it everywhere in its favourite spots of my house. i miss my kitten. i really do.

ya, my boy finally left for tekong.
i'm going to countdown to his bookout, which is on 26 sep!
13 days left!

sent him off earlier in the morning with his family.
am feeling a sudden kind of overwhelmed emo-ness.
no more dar on the go!
no receiving of immediate sms replies,
no blueacidic online.
sighhh.
my loved ones are all disappearing.
firstly my kitten's demise, which i badly haven gotten over,
then my darling.
hope my baby calls me soon. 3 more hours before i get his call =D
it's a start of a new phase of his life.
hope he learns how to take care of himself well in there.

i will be blogging everyday for him to get updated on what went on with me.
i really miss him now lar.
maybe it also has got to do with my taking of leave for thurs and fri to accompany him 24 hours then now he's gone.
almost teared on the bus but dar says he dont wan to see me sad!
so i rolled the tears back into my eyes.
but deep down, i'm really sad to see him go.
although i talk until he machiam dying, (TOUCH WOOD!)
but really, he is so far far away, suddenly unable to contact him on the go.

the journey to send him off:

yeah he still had his hair cos he wanted to go in then shave. poor dar. his lovely hair no more. lol.

at his house, changing his bag to a more manly one.



his father and him exploring the vintage loud ringing alarm clock. ROFL.



at the ferry terminal and in the ferry







tekong! never take the buildings. forgotten! but it certainly looks like a resort. far from what i imagined!



his mum took this pic. lol.



last lunch before we really separated. shitty food. i know it looks yummy. but the taste is shitty. lol. gonna be hard on him.



upon arrival we were off for a tour guide,
where dar went a separate way up a staircase for a briefing, while i treasure a long glimpse of him.
went to the falcon company which dar is in,
and noted his platoon no and serial no.
he is in platoon 2 and serial no is 11!
ROFL.
then they showed us what is packed inside their bags.
super alot of stuff. lol.
then went to the auditorium to witness the oath-taking ceremony.
didnt hear a single word other than the last sentence,
"WITH MY LIFE!"
with louder emphasis. dar says the sergeant major says if didnt say it out loud,
"you will be punished".
so he really was obedient. maybe when he come out he will listen to me more. =D

then finally for food tasting. they called it food tasting to taste the food in army.
zzz.
then dar left to fall in at the parade square after blowing me a goodbye kiss.
boohoohoo! =(

oh! saw ming yang and gilbert too!
ming yang enlisted today too. and gilbert is already something inside.
he was ushering the crowd in the canteen. haha.

after which, his family sent me back and i take a deep breath of his pillow before leaving the house.

ARGHHHH. MAUREEN IS EMO!
=(

not to mention he went out on wed to give me a surprise that night.
firstly, he called me, telling me that he's outside my house.
o.o

then he asked me to come down with him to show me something,
i wasn't wearing contact lenses and everything was a blur.
initially i asked if he bought me another kitten. lol.
then he said no but still dragged me down,
and asked me to open the car boot.
o.O

and ta-da.









at first i thought it was godiva chocolate cos the paper bag was brown plus i couldnt see properly,
then i look closely and saw the 5 letters!

i dont mean to show off.
but this is a brand call gucci and it costs a bomb such as $540.
O.O

i was totally 100% shocked. even though most of the time i'm shock-proofed.
i dream to have a gucci bag and stuff, but have no idea dar is making all these happen.
he mentioned he will buy branded stuff for me.
but i didnt know so soon and he havent really start work and everything.
but he knows my current wallet is spoilt.
thank you dear. you really made me feel what is love.
not because you bought me the gucci. i would love you even if you buy mochi.
but of the little things you took note of and the effort to come over my place to surprise me in the middle of the night.
and that you spent hours deciding which design i would love.
i totally heart this design and heart it even more cos it's from you.
that's not all.

of cos i will not sit back and enjoy the wallet.
i will be doing my part as a girlfriend too,
these 2 weeks (just as a side note)
i will save as many coins as i can for him to bring to camp to use the vending machine for drinks.
i will make a jigsaw puzzle of me and him to be placed in his room. (he wanted to do this initially, so i will fulfil it ! then we can enjoy the pics before going to bed when we get engaged! =D)
i will go to ikea to source for furniture to put in this room, if space allows!
all these will also keep me busy then when i return home,
i can just patiently wait for his call. =)

13 days left!
i miss you baby!


Tuesday, September 09, 2008 @ 8:43 PM
my kitten really fell off the 10th floor this time.
and never came back.
it's gone, for good.



take care of yourself okay at the nether world ok?
i will always love u.

@ 4:20 PM
time flies!
been counting down and noting it in my office.
7 more days till dear booked out!
this is getting abit impatient. lol.
dear has been sweet to call me whenever he has the free time.
even sms suddenly too.
thanks baby. ((:

new update, i have a new kitten. a female this time.
named snowie.
hope i can bring up this one well.

dear faster book out! =)

@ 4:20 PM
I'M FEELING EXTREMELY GRUMPY!

NOBODY UNDERSTANDS THE STRESS I'M GOING THROUGH.

Monday, September 08, 2008 @ 9:14 PM
sigh,


anyway, collection 12 preview.
lots of stuff.




Support k.

@ 1:19 AM
ooohhh i got up a wishlist. attires for work.
hope they dont get sold out fast cos my darn pay has been delayed.

from bysi,
- black working pants
- army-green dress
- pale pink top

from frontieer
- satin black pencil skirt

from bugis
- grey skinny jeans

hey girls, divazelle is going to flea market on 20th sept at the Singapore Art Museum!
it's a night affair, hence, it's starting at 5pm ending at 1am!
please come and support us okay? =)

geez. dunno how we are going to get there and back.

my kitten was at the ledge of the kitchen window strutting here and there!
arghhhhh! pray that it doesnt fall =(

my baby is finally entering the army soon. sad!
5 more days before he goes in.
took off on thurs afternoon and fri to accompany him for the last 2 days.
he's coming over to fetch me later. thanks baby -v-
i got this marriage blues suddenly nowadays and i started asking dear when he wants to marry me =X
he says "when i start working and got abit of money first lor, you? "
i forgot what i answered,
but currently now,
what i want to say is, anytime,
and we will work hard for our future together =)

my ideal age of marriage is actually 27. and have a baby at 29.
let me see, i am 20 years old.
after finishing working for this one year,
and if i successfully applied to local uni,
after uni it would be another 4 years.
i'll be 25.
and work for 2 years! imagine my pay when i come out of uni would be $2900. (agar agar)
saving 2k per month would be $48000 to pay off uni debts.
assuming i were to save about 8k for this year.
uni fees are let's say 6.5k per sem, one year 2 sem, which is 52k!
GUAGUAGUA.
i only left $56k - $52k = $4000! o.o
bank loan's interest leh?
HOW TO MARRY?!
car leh, car how? i also wan to buy car!

okay okay, alternatively,
i work another year, saving about $26k
go to SIM and complete the degree in 1 year TOGETHER with baby.
i will save a lot of money but i cant go back to my current comfy workplace cos they only accept ntu, nus grads.
and i dont get to study what i like. i like biz. to complete in 1 year,
i must study IT.

another alternative,
marry as in shifting to dear's house till we earned enough to buy a new house.
not an official ceremony but as in getting engaged.
when we got enough money, then we will buy a new house and shift out.
then i dont mind studying the double degree i wanted to study in ntu =D
dar would have worked for about 1 year if he chooses to study in SIM for 1 year when i graduate.
at least we got the money to get engaged, yeah?
then we work hard together for the next 2 years,
while i earn hard to clear my debts for the bank loan and our future,
he will work hard to buy his first car.
then work hard to get officially married and over to a new pretty house.
=DDDDD

ok. right now. this should be the plan.
amongst the plan, i might get an insurance to claim one big amount to marry.
thats where kezia comes in, yay.

i will work and study hard for this future that i've planned.
(:

Friday, September 05, 2008 @ 11:17 PM
i hope by any chance your blog is not talking about me though i guess 99.99% it is.
if what i have done for you in the past is a blur i forgive you but you clearly dont know the reason why i left you.
was i upset when i left you? i was.
whatever it is, i'm extremely disappointed.

2 years of relationship and that is how i am in your eyes.
then fuck it ok, take it that i wasted 2 years of my life dedicating myself to u.

i dont wish to dig up the past anymore.
but i didnt bring down your character infront of anyone else.
but from what you said in the post:


What's so good about you, and stop saying how good she was ok, she let me down in the first place, stop saying till she's like an angel. Fuck it.
Dont make me piss off, one more word and i will swear at you.


i dont know what that person said to you, but i believe OUTSIDERS can see for themselves how i treated you in the past but FOR NO RECIPROCATION for 2 years.

dont make me bring up EVERYTHING i did but u did not appreciate nor treasure.

when u realised our rs was going down then u bothered trying to make amendments. but it's of no use anymore for u have hurt me like nobody's business.

to the gf: i suggest u do not make comments cos it was between us and you clearly do not know what went on. for all i know, he could have only told you THE ENDING part of the rs. you only heard him, have you heard mine? please be fair for a relationship consists of 2 persons. you DO NOT KNOW the facts cos you are not in it. he can choose to filter out whatever he wants to say to you. stop making crude remarks and capslocking those words describing me. i dont know u and u dont know me, it's best we shut up about opinions of each other. and i know he has definitely become a better boyfriend now. so kindly appreciate what he had experienced with me. the relationship IS NOT SHORT, it was one of my longest, and it hurt me bad.

And, by saying i let you down, then inviting me to your party, u are just trying to make me look like a total bitch in front of your friends and family. i know u might be inviting me as a friend but you clearly did not try to think on my part and your gf's too. moreover your gf also clearly stated that if i'm there, she wont be there. so what for sending me the invite? for your info, your father had hideous looking eyes on me when i met your parents at the graduation. even after the breakup, i need to suffer at the expense of what you said ? I do not need to keep explaining to everyone. if you insist that i let you down, so be it. i can say i'm on the verge of hating you now.

I have said what i wanted to say. you can choose not to reply but you cant change the way i think of you now.

anyway, if you are not talking about me, gladly ignore this post.

Monday, September 01, 2008 @ 9:44 PM
our anniversary photos.
no him cos he didnt styled his hair and didnt like to take pics!




orchard hotel's buffet!
as usual, too excited to eat that didnt take the pics of the food.
the food is just 100% satisfying! no need description! =DDD


had an amazing day with him. words need not be said here =)

me with my new cameraaa =x
with good exposure, i can finally look fair yupei!!!! ROFL.



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